When everything is said and done all that is left is nothing but a memory to remind us of a life or person and an event. So hello memory, we meet again. It has been a while since I visited you, actually a week to be exact.

I just want to say how much I miss you and how much I truly wish you were here with me. I really miss not being able to hug you, to tuck you in bed, to take you to the park, talk to you till you fall asleep, and personally tell you that I love you and that you are one of the biggest gifts life has ever given me. Whenever I want to stop smiling and trying even if I have a billion reasons why I should die you give me a billion and one reasons to smile and forget the all. When I want to escape I always remember that day in summer when we spent almost all day at the park and watched the sunset. Everything about that day was so perfect. It was in fact the best day of my life.

I wish you could be here on your special day so I could celebrate your birthday with you, but, unfortunately things are far too complicated and though we are close you are still to far from me. I know I cannot be by your side on that beautiful day when you were brought into this Earth and my life but, from the bottom of my heart I wish you  a happy birthday and I hope that you find happiness this year, that your dreams come true, that you have many perfect days and warm nights, perfect summer, winter, fall days, that you learn many things, that you age gracefully, that you have many friends, and good companions, that you are truly happy with you and do what YOU love not what others expect.

Dear brother,

I wish you the best birthday ever, I wish you all the gold and beauty and success in the world and in life. I wish you all that is good and that you dream of. I want you to know that I always keep you in my heart, mind, and soul and that I carry your photo and bracelet everywhere I go. That all your paintings I have them here as decorations even your letters. That I pray for you every night that your life goes as beautiful as it can be and that you rise and shine above all. I wish you all the best that life can possibly offer because you are such a wonderful human being. Even though you are young you have saved my life literally and you have tought me so many things.

Though far I want you to know that you are amazing and that I love you and I am proud of you. No matter what happens I promise you that I will love you and be there for you no matter what happens or what you do. You are my little angel and I constantly pray that you have a great day and are doing well and that nothing ever goes missing in your life.

I do not know if you will ever read this but I know things are so difficult but I somehow hope that as I am writing this you are dreaming that I kiss you in your forehead and wish you  a happy birthday my little baby angel brother.

I love you  always and forever.